The Hole Will Appear

 I lost someone very dear to me this evening. To those of you who are angry at me for complaining, yes, I know, death is normal. Happens all the time. And for those of you saying that this isn't the point of this blog, I also know this is an inspiration blog. But, I feel like for there to be a need for inspiration, we need to suffer. And the Lord (whether you believe in him or not) knows that I have done my fair deal of suffering just in the past two years alone. I've lost five people very close to me in just two years. You'd think I would have grown used to it by now, but guess what? I haven't, in any way.

Now cheer up; this isn't going to be a whole post about how horrible my life is. Because it does have it's bright points, which is what I intend this to be about.

Through talking with my best friend and thinking to myself, I've compiled a list of things that I love about my grandmother (the women I lost). I've only let happy things onto the list, pushing away all of the sad and angry ones that try to make their way on. And the list has grown pretty long. And surprisingly, it's helped if only a tiny bit.

I guess my point is, that no matter how deep you think you've sunken, there is always a way out. No, I haven't gotten out yet. And I doubt I will for quite a while. But I can see the hole where I'll begin to dig. And I know that it's possible to get out. I won't be stuck in this pit of despair forever. Whether you have to rely on a friend or family member to start that hole, or if you can start it yourself, it doesn't matter. That hole is going to begin to show itself to you, and the sunlight is going to stream in. You won't be in the darkness forever.

Plus, who said the dark is a bad thing? I've learned the truest and deepest things about myself when I've been trapped in a dark spot where I couldn't see anyone else and I couldn't even trust myself.Darkness and sadness can be scary, but just like happiness and light, it is very necessary.

 I just want people to know that it's going to be alright in the end. And I want people to know this, because I've been to a point way to many times where I thought it wasn't going to be okay. I thought I was drowning and that I would never resurface. A few times I had to pull myself out, and that's when I realized how strong I was. Other times, someone else had to pull me out. And I've realized that there's nothing wrong with that. What are friends for but to pull you from a place that you're took far stuck in to help yourself out of?

Last but not least, I am always here. Even now, when I'm wallowing here in this pit and I feel like I myself can barely stand, I am always here for anyone who needs to talk. Even if you don't know me and we're complete strangers; I'm here. If you feel like someone doesn't care, well guess what? I care. I care with every ounce of my soul. I care because I've been down too many times when I felt no one cared for me, and that's the toughest thing to go through. I don't want anyone to have to feel that. 

It takes a really rough time for a person to remember that others are struggling too. That relying on others during these times doesn't show you your weak, it shows that you have trust. 

Impossible? Or I'm Possible?

Everything that's been accomplished was once thought to be impossible. Be that person who proves the world wrong. Be that person who shows others that it's never for nothing. Never give up. Everything you want is possible. You just have to work for it. And it's going to take time. It's going to take energy. It's going to hurt. But when you prove everyone wrong, when you've finally accomplished it, that's when it's going to be worth it. That's when you'll be thankful that you never gave up on your dreams. And they'll be thankful too.

Too big you say??

There's no such thing as too big of a dream. Dream as big as the empire state building. Feel free. The bigger your goals are, the higher you have to reach. The higher you have to reach, the harder you have to work. And the harder you have to work, the more satisfied you're going to feel when you finally reach your goal. So yeah, dream big, and don't let those small thinkers get you down!!

Oh the Wise Words....

The only thing that matters is what you see in the mirror.....

 

Everyone is going to see what they want to see. They're going to believe what they want to believe. That's fine. Let them have their opinions. They're entitled to them, just as you are. You are allowed to listen to their opinions, really process them, and then throw them away. You don't always have to take everything to heart. I've learned this the hard way. From being picked up from a place so low I thought I'd never return, it took me a long time to see that I was the only one who's opinion truly mattered. If you feel as if you're not enough, or you're unworthy, then change it yourself. You don't have to change just because someone else can't see how much you really mean to the world. One person's opinion shouldn't be the reason you make a life altering decision. Change for you, and only you. 

Create your own Storyline...

Come on! Get out of that rut you've been stuck in. Not happy with your life? Wishing you could tell your boss to shove it, but you're worried what you'll do about money? Been wanting to dump that old boyfriend for some time now, but you don't want to hurt his feelings? Just plain bored with your life? Well, stop complaining! It's not like you don't have a choice in what you do about your life. If may feel like the end right now. It probably feels as if you'll never get out of this place, and you'll be stuck like this forever. But guess what? Here's a secret....you get to choose where your story goes. You get to say when it ends. If you want a happy ending, well, then you just need to keep on trudging. You'll get there. I promise.